Monday, November 14, 2016

Chorizo and Plantain Breakfast Casserole

Saturday night I went to get a few groceries for the week, and when I got there this huge pineapple display was starting at me! They were on major sale for 99 cents so I grabbed one. Then the plantains looked SO yummy so I grabbed one of those too. From that idea I decided to get some chorizo and go for a breakfast recipe.

Side note - I shard this on Instagram for those of you who follow me there, but see the red band bananas? I love to buy these for recipes where I am cooking the banana into something. This is great for blueberry eggs and pumpkin custard or in any kind of pancake/bread type of recipe if you're eating those. They are super cheap and you just peel them and put them in a freezer bag and freeze. Then pull out a banana and thaw anytime you need one! 

Now for the casserole:

2 ripe plantains (I like to get yellow ones with black spots - not fully black ones)
2 large jalapeños
1 package of chorizo
8 eggs
Coconut Oil

Slice your plantains and jalapeños and sauté in a skillet with coconut oil.

This gives your plantains kind of crispy pieces and your jalapeños a little char. Now put them in the bottom of a smaller baking dish and add a little salt. (My dish is 8X8 and worked perfect for this recipe.) 

Next brown your chorizo in the same skillet and then add to the top of the plantains and peppers.

Now beat 8 eggs and pour over the top and press everything with a spoon so that the egg evenly goes throughout the whole casserole and bake at 350 for about 45 minutes. 

I served mine with avocado and that 99 cent pineapple! 

It makes four servings from the pan I used, but you could always adjust the amount of eggs and the size of your baking dish for a bigger crowd. It is SO good - you should try it IMMEDIATELY! 

Saturday, November 5, 2016

How do you find your identity after extreme weight loss?

Well it's been a hard month. I hit my major goal of being half my size, I ran 10 miles for the first time, and I have struggled mentally the entire time.

I quit my Whole130 a few days ago on day 112. I went 112 days eating Whole30 compliant - why didn't I go the last few weeks? I felt like in that moment I needed to make a decision that was sustainable and not restrict myself to just being Whole30. I am trying to make a transition of sorts to a place where I have freedom to just live my life. I don't want food guilt, but I have it.

This month Melissa Hartwig released her new book Food Freedom Forever and this is where I am headed- to a place where I can live my life without the guilt and anxiety.

Part of the book talks about a growth mind-set.

"If you have long considered yourself unhealthy - it you've been overweight, sedentary, sick, or hooked on junk food for most of your life - a fixed mindset will tell you that you'll always be an unhealthy person. Even if you do lose the weight or change your deit, your Debbie Downer brain will keep reminding you that you're not REALLY healthy, because you're stuck with the health status you assigned yourself years ago."

YES - so much this. This is where I am. I have to get out of this mind-set and move onto GROWTH.

Melissa goes on to say:

"The best thing you can do is to adopt a growth mind-set and believe traits are malleable; able to develop and improve with commitment and effort. Instead of labeling your behaviors as healthy, committed, or motivated, label YOURSELF as those things."

I think the longer I continued my strict Whole30 the more I felt like I was punishing myself around food. The "I can't eat that" statement just started to wear on me. I know certain things affect my body poorly (gluten and dairy are not my friends) but what about that delicious maca cacao coffee that has a little coconut sugar and monk fruit? It is paleo and yummy and if I want it why can't I have it? I felt like I was at the point where if I was really gonna embrace food freedom I needed to exercise it and have something non compliant. So I stepped off the Whole30 reset and let myself enjoy it.

I have to figure out a sustainable life plan but it is really hard to shift to that place. When I started I had this huge freaking mountain to climb and at the beginning the climb was scary but I had this place to work towards and so in that since it was attainable. I worked really hard to lose 140 pounds and say "I am half my size!" - so now what? I still have my half marathon goals and I am working hard to get faster and run farther. I am working hard to get stronger and have been weight lifting for awhile  and I am starting to actually have visible muscles. These are all things I am very proud of, but inside my brain I am still the fat girl. I am still scared of food. I am still scared that I will binge off a cliff and gain it all back. I am still scared that I will stop running and go back to lazy habits. I have become a healthy fit person but I am terrified about how to sustain it. I finally arrived and now I don't know what to do. I am struggling with my own identity and that is a by-product of extreme weight loss I didn't expect. You work so incredibly hard to get to the top of this mountain and now you are at the top but guess what? You can never stop climbing! All the hard work - it never stops. You don't just arrive and get to live your life - this IS your life. How do I embrace this? I am also left with the baggage of lose skin that makes me incredibly uncomfortable in my new body.  Yes I wear a size 6 and a small and can see my rib and hip bones, but I also have giant bat wing arms, weird deflated balloon thighs, and stomach skin rolls. I need to be nice to my body and focus on the positive things but for some reason lately all I can do is focus on the negative. Mental plateaus and roadblocks are a part of this process and I have definitely come to a big one. I will persevere and come out stronger. I have shown myself I can and will.

Some advice I got from someone else who has lost over hundred pounds going whole30/paleo (my IG buddy @paleobailey) is to look at how far you have come and remember how healthy, strong, and amazing you are now. So for now I will focus on the progress and not perfection and continue to work towards a growth mind-set.