Tuesday, April 28, 2015


I decided to watch Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead (FSND) and FSND 2 on Netflix this weekend and they really inspired me to truly contemplate the nutritional value of what I put in my body. If you haven't seen them I really suggest you watch it. 

I am probably not going to try a juice reboot but I do think incorporating more micronutrients and fruits and veggies into my diet is a must. The fact that what I eat can heal my body and keep me from having to load up on prescription medications etc. is really amazing. Proper intake of vitamins and minerals can mean the difference between a healthy, productive life, and a life fraught with illness. I am almost thirty and I am not on any medications and have never had any issues with my health other than the obvious overweight issue. I do have a family history of high blood pressure and diabetes which are already associated with obesity. If I continue to be unhealthy with what Im eating and avoid physical activity I can guess in the next 10-15 years Ill be told I have diabetes or high blood pressure or high cholesterol etc. These are not things I want to deal with and can avoid if I choose to change the way I treat my body now. 

So today I decided to go buy a few juices. I did my research first because I know that a lot of what you can buy on the shelf isn't the same as a fresh pressed juice from a juicer. Here is the information from Food Babe that I found to be pretty informative and help me pick out a better juice. 

I was able to find her best choice of organic, cold pressed, GMO free Suja juice right here in Marshall at our Kroger. (FYI Marshall Kroger has really done great things in the produce and healthy food sections of their store. I am always surprised by what I can find there in small town East Texas!) 

Before I was drinking Naked and Bolthouse Farms and according to Food Babe there are a lot of additives and ways of processing that make these choices less effective because pasteurization kills raw enzymes, minerals and vitamins making the juice pretty much worthless to consume. You should read all the other reasons to really be careful about what juices you are buying if you are choosing to consume them for their nutritional value and the micronutrients that are going to help your body, then you really want to make sure that what you are drinking is actually going to be beneficial to your health. 

I think if I really focus on the nutritional value of what I consume and how it is going to fuel my body and mind rather the weight loss part will be a natural by product. 

Friday will mark two months since I devoted myself to being healthy and each day I continue to choose a better path with a few indulgence days mixed in. I never go more than a day or two without going to the gym and I have been consistent with my 5k runner training for three straight weeks. I am slowly starting to make the better choices a habit and it's becoming less difficult to keep myself motivated. I pack my gym bag before I go to bed and when I wake up I get excited to work out. I never regret deciding to make better choices and in two more months I hope to feel like a totally different person. 

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Hebrews 12:1

We have been STAAR testing this week so as a hall monitor I have had plenty of time to finally read some books that have been collecting dust on my shelf. I finished the book I bought over spring break titled "It Was Me All Along" by Andie Mitchell which I highly suggest you read.

She lost 135 pounds and keeps it off even as a food lover! It's a memoir of her life and how when she lost 135 pounds and realized how to have a healthy relationship with food and excercise. If you want to read it you can buy it HERE.

The success of her book stemmed from her blog which I actually stumbled upon back when I began this blog in 2012. She is a true inspiration and you can read her blog at Can You Stay For Dinner. 

NOW the book I dove into yesterday that is inspiring the HECK out of me is one I bought about 5 years ago and never read. Yyyyyyeah I am one of those book people. It's called Fat Chance and it is a book by Julie Hadden who was a contestant on The Biggest Loser.

 Im reading the book and I get to page 30

 "Looking back, Im stung by the reality of how my food addiction would affect Noah in his early childhood. Any reasonable person would be shocked to see a drug addict taking her child into the crack house with her. You and I would both look down on an alcoholic who loaded her child into the car just before taking a spin fully drunk. But somehow it was lost on me that I was doing the very same thing. I was enveloping Noach in my addiction, without any regard for his life. What I ate is what he ate. My sedentary life was his sedentary life. All of my bad choices were his bad choices, simply beacuse he was my son. My six fast-food meals a week became his fast-food habit too. My couch-potato ways became his lethargy as well. What kind of mother would do this? It's not the mom I wanted to be." 

 And I pulled out my pen and underlined that passage and put a huge star by it so that I could remember


Later in the book she talks about how as a fat person you have low self-esteem and low self worth which is how the cycle continues. I am not worth the effort to make a change. BUT when you are doing something for your child it takes on this whole new importance.

 "When Mike and I attended Noah's soccer games, I'd refuse to stand up and cheer because I knew that my arms and my midsection would jiggle. Worse than that, I denied him the delight of swimming with his buddies because I couldn't bring myself to go to the neighborhood pool during "normal" hours. I'd wait until late afternoon and watch him swim alone, while nobody was around to see me ... Big FAT me." 

 Wow! So now not only are my bad habits going to affect my child but my lack of self worth and confidence are going to cause my child pain as well. Will I be able to run with her to fly a kite? Will I fit on roller coasters with her when we go to amusement parks? Will I be too embarrassed to take her down the water slide at a public pool?

 "Even if you feel you're not worth the fight involved in changing your life, someone else is!" 

My blog started with a journey to get pregnant at a healthy weight because of the issues you can have as an obese pregnant woman. The idea of being pregnant was enough motivation to get me down 75 pounds! Then I got pregnant and gained about 40 of it back and then about 10 during the first year of being a stay at home mom and starving breast feeder! I re-titled this blog "momma" because all along she has been my motivation. When I'm jogging and it hurts and sucks and I want to quit I talk to myself out loud and make lists of why its important for HER that I do this. PLUS I plan on trying to have a second child in the next year so I have double the reason to push myself and not give up this fight to get to a healthy weight.

 Later in the book Julie is recalling moments from The Biggest Loser when another contestant, Bill, describes his motivation.

 "To be half the man so I can be twice the man" He told of a time he went to ride a roller coaster with his daughter but couldn't wedge himself into the seat. His daughter, who constantly worried about her dad's weight tried to console him, but her words made him feel worse. "Kids shouldn't have to wonder if their dad's going to be around. I want to lose half of my weight so that I can be twice as active in my kids lives!"

 Ok I'm only three chapters in and we are going full on HEY FAT MOM YOU BETTER GET IT TOGETHER! Emma is still at the age where she isn't really aware that I'm not a great example of health. She is old enough to eat all foods though and she's old enough to see mommy and daddy eating and want to eat off of our plate. That's been a huge motivator in making good food choices.

 Another big part of Julie's story is how her faith motivated her. She references scripture and music lyrics often that have helped her on her journey to lose weight. The one I underlined, starred, and wrote down was Hebrews 12:1

 " Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked for us."

 So I can run the race or I can sit on a couch and watch it go by me. I can fight while I'm young and have the physical ability to put in the amount of effort losing 100 pounds is going to take or I can decide to just be fat forever. Do I want the change badly enough to pursue the person I deserve to be?

Thursday, April 9, 2015


WOW this has been a busy week.

I went to the gym on Monday and got in a really good workout, Tuesday I didn't get home until late, Wednesday we had an evening at my parents and went out on the lake, and today I was able to leave the high school around 2:45 and head home about 30 min early and I chose to skip the gym. Instead I came home and did yard work, which definitely got me really sweaty and still burned calories, but three straight days of no real working out made me feel really fat.

It was definitely the perfect time to get my new gym gear in the mail!
My three new motivational shirts and snazzy purple pants have arrived.

I was feeling rather bad about Easter Sunday lunch and eating a lot of strawberry shortcake with extra homemade whipped cream, then having Mexican food on Tuesday and combined with the lack of gym time my self image was this

Yes whipped cream and some Mexican food have made me cripplingly obese.

A few weeks ago when we went to the Opera there was a couple that was overweight and sweating and breathing hard just walking to their seats. When they got to their seats they didn't look like the fit very comfortably in them. It made me realize that I really need to change my habits so that I don't end up feeling like I don't even fit in a seat. I already felt that way on our Choir trip when I had to forfeit doing the race cars because my butt didn't fit in the seats. I want to be healthy and never fear that I can't do something because of my body! What if one day Emma begs me to take her on some ride and I have to say "I can't mommy is too big?" It is a truly devastating thought to think that my bad habits could one day hurt my child.

I hadn't weighed in since Monday so I decided to check out the damage of this week and it turns out I have lost weight.


So it turns out I haven't had a set back at all.


Tomorrow I am going to the gym after work, Saturday I have the 5K if it doesn't rain, and Sunday I plan to hit up the gym too.

Friday, April 3, 2015

The end is the beginning

I got really busy and haven't had time to blog about my 24 day results.

I have the energy to go to the gym after work and then come home and deal with a crazy toddler.

I have the energy to actually do CHIN DIPS! Im sorry say what?

I am starting to feel better and create healthy habits.

These are my before and after from March 1st to March 24th

I can definitely already see a difference in just 24 days.

 I decided to continue with these products for now.

Spark is a must, plus I got another energy nutrition mix with appetite control that tastes like coffee, and I also kept catalyst and added thermoplus. I have all of these daily.


  • Supports the body's ability to convert fat into energy*
  • Promotes a healthy metabolism*
  • Helps suppress appetite*
  • Contains oolong tea and sage extracts to support weight loss*

  • Helps maintain muscle mass during exercise & weight management*
  • Aids in preserving muscle and energy levels during times of calorie restriction*
  • Helps repair & protect muscle tissue*

My daily routine looks like this

Wake up: Spark or Coffeccino, 1 thermo plus, three catalyst
Drive to work: Meal bar
Around 9/10: have a snack- usually a banana or larabar
Around 11: take three catalyst
11:30:  LUNCH - either a good healthy balanced meal or a meal shake
Around 2/3: Spark and snack
After work:  workout
Around 6: Delicious healthy dinner
Sometimes I have a larabar for dessert around 8 if I am a little hungry

This week I ordered some really cute gym shirts from Activate Apparel 

And some cute pants from Old Navy

Let's be honest working out is way more fun when you feel kind of cute! 

Next weekend there is a 5K in Marshall for the animal shelter. I am thinking of participating because I have registered for the Color Run Shreveport in May and I wouldn't mind doing one before then. I think I may be doing it alone but I plan to take the Emmster with me in our jogging stroller.

So I have been dedicated to being healthy for a whole month! TIME TO KEEP GOING