Tuesday, November 27, 2012


So lately I have been dealing with an extreme amount of stress and stress related symptoms. 

I have NO idea why or what it is. I mean its because of work but I don't really know why or how to fix it. Sometimes its ok and other times I just want to run away.  I honestly can't 100% diagnose what at work is stressing me out- I think its multiple things but DANG it's really affecting me and my health. 

I have gotten sick almost NON stop this year! I also suffer from several more of the things on this list... UGH

Thankfully working out is a good stress combatant and so I  really kicked my own butt today at the gym. 

I am rewarding myself with a delicious post workout smoothie. 


1 banana
2-3 TBS dry peanut butter (PB2) 
1 TBS flaxseed powder 
giant handful of spinach (use A LOT) 
5 ice cubes 
enough almond coconut milk to make it all SMOOTH 

Hopefully being in control of my life outside of work will help me to kind of get my stress under control. 
1. Work out - I packed my clothes before work so that I would immediately go to the gym and not come home because its hard for me to get to the gym if I come home I just want to feel sorry for myself and be lazy

2. Don't eat foods that will make me feel guilty  - after the gym I went to Kroger and only bought fruits and veggies - loaded up on good healthy tasty food that I know won't make me stressed that I just ate a snickers haha 

3. Hot tea/coffee- I like to drink a cup before bed because the warm drink makes me feel cozy 

4. Hot bath and mint aromatherapy bubble bath  AHHHHH

5. Music - I like to listen to KVNE or the other christian stations because they are good songs with positive lyrics and that helps me focus on better things.  ESPECIALLY now with all the christmas music

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Happy Turkey Day!

I am so thankful for this blog and the help it has given me through tough times and how much it and the people who follow it give me motivation to keep on going. 

Yesterday evening when we arrived in Houston at my in-laws my father in law said "have you lost more weight? You look like you have" which 1. was weird because my father in law has NEVER said anything to me about how I look EVER and 2. was AWESOME because my father in law has never said anything to me about how I look EVER hahah I floated on a cloud for a minute. THEN he said "Well... I am going to change that this weekend" hahah He is a huge food lover and cook like me. We share recipes and food love when we are together. 

He boasted on my pumpkin cookies and hopefully later will boast on my pumpkin pie. 

For those interested in my healthy Thanksgiving desserts here are the recipes. 


1 box of spice cake 
1 can of pumpkin 
1 bag of dark chocolate chips 
pumpkin pie spice or cinnamon (I put in maybe 3 tsp... I didn't measure I just do it for extra taste but with spice cake you can omit this and it would be fine) 

Mix all ingredients together, place spoonfuls onto a baking sheet and bake at 350 for about 15-20 minutes or until firm and deliciously moist and scrumptious.


I made my whole wheat crust I have shared before which is ... 

1 cup whole wheat flour 
2 Tbs milk (I used unsweetened almond coconut milk)
4 Tbs Coconut oil 
3/4 tsp salt 

I doubled this because it makes 2 pies 

The filling is 

2 cups pumpin 
1/2 cup honey or agave 
4 egg whites 
1 1/2 cups fat free milk (or almond milk etc. which is what I used) 
2-3 tsp pumpkin pie spice

Fill pie crusts 

Bake at 425 for 15 minutes 
Reduce heat to 350 and bake additional 45 minutes 
Place on counter to cool while watching holiday movies and bask in your awesome holiday baking glory! 

I don't have a photo of that... I guess I could take one but I think my in-laws already think I am weird for bringing the giant tupperware of cookies to the back room with me.... haha 

ENJOY YOUR THANKSGIVING and be thankful for all you have 

Wednesday, November 21, 2012


s-i-x-t-y f-i-v-e 
you heard that? 


That is how much weight I have lost since I decided to start this journey on January 1st 2012.


 I have a little over a month until the one year mark! EEEK my goal is to see 80 gone so that I will be under 200 pounds. WOOT WOOT 

I was really scared to weigh this morning but I decided NO just get on there and deal with the number and maybe it will be motivation to get your butt in gear over this holiday and not go crazy with gorging my face. 

Turns out I had lost weight not gained weight. HAPPY SURPRISE 

I immediately said to myself DO NOT LET THIS MAKE YOU THINK ITS OK TO EAT A BUNCH OF CRAP AND DRINK A TON OF BEER TOMORROW let this be the motivation to realize this shit is possible and I am SO close to my under 200 goal I can TASTE it and it tastes way better than greasy crap and a ton of beer!!!!! 

I don't love this quote because it can be taken to a negative place BUT I am not I eat ... a lot ...a whole lot. I am not saying I will starve I am just eating a ton of food thats not bad for me and that stuff does taste delicious by the way. ANYWAY 

Second amazing moment today? 

I jogged for seven straight minutes STRAIGHT MINUTES ... SEVEN... 

It wasn't actually terror it was more like OH MY GOD I AM DOING IT  
3 minute mark- "SHIT LETS STOP... ok no keep going to 4" 
4 minute mark - "OK ... well no if I go one more minute I can do 5" 
5 minute mark- "Well I am not dying for breath I think I am ok to keep going" 
6 minute mark - "Yeah I can go longer lets do 10 minutes OH MY GOD" 
7 minute mark - "NOPE 10 minutes not gonna work this is good I DID THIS SHIT" 

The longest I have gone in the past is 5 minutes and now I did 7... I bet I can work up to a 10 minute jog. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT 

I went 1/2 a mile in that 7 minutes I want to be able to do a 10 minute mile in a few months GURG we shall see. 

But this is real motivation for running the Wonderland Run 5k in a few weeks 

moving on.... 

I have fallen back in love with CLOTHES

I know I posted about this before but lately I have really regained my bold and brave fashion sense.

If you follow me on facebook you saw my outfit from Sunday that I got from Gwynnie Bee

 This shirt is from IGIGI which I love but I have never purchased anything from there because its so dang expensive. Thanks Gwynnie Bee for letting me wear this on the cheap.

Tonight I am headed out in the same blue pants (size 16 btw... yeah makes me happy) with a bright turquoise shirt and BAM leopard booties.

GOAL FOR TOMORROW - don't overeat and don't over obsess just have a good day and focus on family and not food!

Monday, November 19, 2012


Well I am actually really shocked at the number of views my blog has gotten this month since I have only posted once! 

I can't believe that I have neglected my blog so bad this month. The reason is because I have also neglected my healthy lifestyle. 

I am not going to sit here and make excuses about why I suddenly stopped exercising or trying to be super healthy with my food choices but I am going to own up to my lack of drive and hopefully this week I can get back into it. 

Nobody said this was going to be easy or that I wouldn't fall down a few times along the way. 

I have definitely not changed my bad habits completely and these past 3 weeks or so I have not gained anything from my lack of effort ...other than regrets. 

I am not saying that I gained 50 pounds or even 10 but I feel like I have gained 80 and the FEELING is worse than the reality. I am starting to judge myself negatively and that's making it harder for me to want to get back in my routine. 

The main thing I have to work on: 

1. drinking alcohol. I started to drink again because I was dealing with stress and unfortunately decided I needed beer or wine to deal with that. I think my beer consumption has contributed to me feeling like I put on 80 pounds. 

2. working out. I have not worked out in about 3 weeks until today. I finally forced myself to he gym today. I kicked butt. I did this circuit - ran for 3 min. and walked for 2 min. and repeated 4 times. Then I did several leg machines and of course my abs. I already feel less fat just from that one good trip. 

3. Planning my food and making sure to get enough veggies and fruits. I really haven't done horrible with food but I do have room for improvement. 

I have to keep this in mind for the next month or so until my routine becomes habit again. Did I fall down? Yes! Am I giving up and quitting? NO! I must move forward.... 

I have a 5k coming up on Dec. 4th AH so scared I won't be running the whole time or anything I will circuit just like I do at the gym. Its a good challenge for me and good motivation for the next 2 weeks to get my butt to the gym. 

I have a second 5k in February and hopefully by then the goal is to run most of that and clock in around 10 minutes a mile which should be doable because I did 16 minutes today. I will be training for that goal in mind. 

Sunday, November 4, 2012


I have been sick a lot the past month and it has put me in a bad rut of not working out. It doesn't help that my husband and gym buddy seriously injured his back and has been off work on disability AND unable to work out as well. I was in a real groove of making sure I worked out at least 4-5 times a week. This past week I didn't go ONCE because I was sick for three straight days then my body was all sore and achey and while working out probably would have made that feeling go away and made me stretch out and feel better I decided that not working out was the right choice. 

I have this battle constantly. I have allowed myself a few food cheats once in a while but for the most part I am really good at sticking with my food goals. 

For my benefit alone I want to remind myself of those goals and how I can work harder to meet them

1. Stay away from refined sugar as much as possible (I do eat chocolate from time to time in fact as I write this I am eating a handful of M&Ms... I could make my own with cocoa powder, stevia, and coconut oil)
2. Stay away from artificial sweeteners (I use natural sweeteners at home but if I get tea or coffee out I use splenda ... I could keep my stevia drops in my purse) 
3. Drink water, coffee, or tea only (I have had family social gatherings as well as some stressed out days this past month and I have allowed myself consumption of alcohol. I think working on being smart and planning for alcohol I could do better. Telling myself I can't have it sometimes makes me want it even more. There is really no sub for alcohol so I can't just drink this not that. Make smart alcohol choices like a glass of red wine and STOP) 
4. Only eat whole grains (I am really good at this I never eat anything that isn't whole grain at home sometimes when I am out if thats not an option I will have white flour bread but I try to limit that as much as possible.) 
5. Load up on fruits and veggies ( I am good about this nothing to work on here) 

For the most part I just want to make sure that with my food I remember that I am not on a diet but I am eating for health. There are tons of healthy foods that are seriously delicious and satisfy my cravings. 
I don't want to give up on my goals and fall back into bad habits. I am very excited to see where I will be in a year and I need to set my food habits in place especially as the holidays approach! 

As far as working out I just have to get back in the habit. 

I need to be sure that I am working hard to stay fit and healthy. I am supposed to be doing this for the rest of my life and sometimes the thought of that makes me think its ok to stop for a few days and then I lose focus and fall back into the old me which never went to the gym. This is not easy. For a while I was hardcore and doing awesome and never strayed. People that don't see my struggle think "man how does she do it?" but hey I am human and its not easy and I fall down. I just have to get back up from this and keep going. 
I want to push myself to do what I know I have in me to do... I can change