Sunday, December 9, 2012


I posted on Facebook after my 5k that I survived but I want to give a little more details on the experience. 

The plan was to go with a friend from high school who I sort of reunited with over our weight loss blogs and journey to be healthier. We were both super nervous about it but the plan was just to get done not to push ourselves to the point where we needed one of the many paramedics on hand haha. 

I wore my "Let it SNOW!" jogging shirt .... 

I told her we should at least jog to the first turn or at least the first two minutes so off we went. She started walking a little before that time but I wanted to push myself to jog until the 2 minutes then I would start walking to let her catch up. When I started walking I couldn't find her ANYWHERE. I didn't want to stop so I kept walking and jogging the whole thing all alone. WELL sort of all alone if you have ever done a 5k you know you make random friends with the people who are struggling next to you haha. I bonded with a lady on the road because we got to the "1 mile" sign and I said "Aw crap I thought that meant 1 mile left but it just means I have only gone 1 mile. DAAAAANG" 

I did well I finished the 3 miles in 45 minutes! I hope to keep doing 5ks and getting better and better times and even one day being able to jog the full 3.2 miles!

Here are a few pictures my Dad took as I was jogging past - they are blurry but you get the idea. 

Starting and ending my trek with this really made it more fun! 

When I finally finished I found out that my friend had twisted her ankle right at the beginning of the race. UGH I know she was so disappointed not to be able to complete her first 5k. Thankfully she has plenty of time to do a zillion 5ks in her life if she wants to. I know she was upset though. 

Anyway, as I said before the goal for this 5k was to complete it. My legs were burning and sore by the end! It was MUCH harder than the treadmill at the gym because of hills and turns and of course the road is a different texture so next time I should train on a road. Since the 5k I am still jogging at the gym and even made myself jog yesterday at 4.6 speed WHAT WHAT for short legs mcgee thats FAST. 

The best thing about this experience was knowing that I am young and fit enough to get my butt off the couch and actually do it. 

In fact it made me feel so good I wore this shirt yesterday when I went to the gym. 

While at the gym I saw a poster for a Fun Run on January 13th ... WHO IS WITH ME? 

Monday, December 3, 2012


I am really nervous but also really excited. On Saturday I made an all time record and jogged for 10 minutes straight. I don't plan on doing that pace tomorrow night I am thinking maybe jog 5 and walk 5 until the 3 miles is GONE. No matter how long it takes I am very proud I am making the effort and as they say... 


Peaches and Cream Oatmeal Smoothie 

1 small container of chobani mango greek yogurt
About 2 frozen peaches
3 Tbs dry quick oats 
Almond Coconut milk until everything is smooth 

YUMMMMM its so good 

Tonight for dinner we are having a chicken salad I made up. 


I shred cooked chicken and add craisins, and walnuts or pecans, then a little honey, salt and pepper AND 1 small container of chobani blood orange greek yogurt (this is the secret that makes is super creamy and REALLY flavorful with the orange), then I add in extra orange zest. This stuff is good on bread, in a wrap, or over lettuce. 

Tuesday, November 27, 2012


So lately I have been dealing with an extreme amount of stress and stress related symptoms. 

I have NO idea why or what it is. I mean its because of work but I don't really know why or how to fix it. Sometimes its ok and other times I just want to run away.  I honestly can't 100% diagnose what at work is stressing me out- I think its multiple things but DANG it's really affecting me and my health. 

I have gotten sick almost NON stop this year! I also suffer from several more of the things on this list... UGH

Thankfully working out is a good stress combatant and so I  really kicked my own butt today at the gym. 

I am rewarding myself with a delicious post workout smoothie. 


1 banana
2-3 TBS dry peanut butter (PB2) 
1 TBS flaxseed powder 
giant handful of spinach (use A LOT) 
5 ice cubes 
enough almond coconut milk to make it all SMOOTH 

Hopefully being in control of my life outside of work will help me to kind of get my stress under control. 
1. Work out - I packed my clothes before work so that I would immediately go to the gym and not come home because its hard for me to get to the gym if I come home I just want to feel sorry for myself and be lazy

2. Don't eat foods that will make me feel guilty  - after the gym I went to Kroger and only bought fruits and veggies - loaded up on good healthy tasty food that I know won't make me stressed that I just ate a snickers haha 

3. Hot tea/coffee- I like to drink a cup before bed because the warm drink makes me feel cozy 

4. Hot bath and mint aromatherapy bubble bath  AHHHHH

5. Music - I like to listen to KVNE or the other christian stations because they are good songs with positive lyrics and that helps me focus on better things.  ESPECIALLY now with all the christmas music

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Happy Turkey Day!

I am so thankful for this blog and the help it has given me through tough times and how much it and the people who follow it give me motivation to keep on going. 

Yesterday evening when we arrived in Houston at my in-laws my father in law said "have you lost more weight? You look like you have" which 1. was weird because my father in law has NEVER said anything to me about how I look EVER and 2. was AWESOME because my father in law has never said anything to me about how I look EVER hahah I floated on a cloud for a minute. THEN he said "Well... I am going to change that this weekend" hahah He is a huge food lover and cook like me. We share recipes and food love when we are together. 

He boasted on my pumpkin cookies and hopefully later will boast on my pumpkin pie. 

For those interested in my healthy Thanksgiving desserts here are the recipes. 


1 box of spice cake 
1 can of pumpkin 
1 bag of dark chocolate chips 
pumpkin pie spice or cinnamon (I put in maybe 3 tsp... I didn't measure I just do it for extra taste but with spice cake you can omit this and it would be fine) 

Mix all ingredients together, place spoonfuls onto a baking sheet and bake at 350 for about 15-20 minutes or until firm and deliciously moist and scrumptious.


I made my whole wheat crust I have shared before which is ... 

1 cup whole wheat flour 
2 Tbs milk (I used unsweetened almond coconut milk)
4 Tbs Coconut oil 
3/4 tsp salt 

I doubled this because it makes 2 pies 

The filling is 

2 cups pumpin 
1/2 cup honey or agave 
4 egg whites 
1 1/2 cups fat free milk (or almond milk etc. which is what I used) 
2-3 tsp pumpkin pie spice

Fill pie crusts 

Bake at 425 for 15 minutes 
Reduce heat to 350 and bake additional 45 minutes 
Place on counter to cool while watching holiday movies and bask in your awesome holiday baking glory! 

I don't have a photo of that... I guess I could take one but I think my in-laws already think I am weird for bringing the giant tupperware of cookies to the back room with me.... haha 

ENJOY YOUR THANKSGIVING and be thankful for all you have 

Wednesday, November 21, 2012


s-i-x-t-y f-i-v-e 
you heard that? 


That is how much weight I have lost since I decided to start this journey on January 1st 2012.

 I have a little over a month until the one year mark! EEEK my goal is to see 80 gone so that I will be under 200 pounds. WOOT WOOT 

I was really scared to weigh this morning but I decided NO just get on there and deal with the number and maybe it will be motivation to get your butt in gear over this holiday and not go crazy with gorging my face. 

Turns out I had lost weight not gained weight. HAPPY SURPRISE 

I immediately said to myself DO NOT LET THIS MAKE YOU THINK ITS OK TO EAT A BUNCH OF CRAP AND DRINK A TON OF BEER TOMORROW let this be the motivation to realize this shit is possible and I am SO close to my under 200 goal I can TASTE it and it tastes way better than greasy crap and a ton of beer!!!!! 

I don't love this quote because it can be taken to a negative place BUT I am not I eat ... a lot ...a whole lot. I am not saying I will starve I am just eating a ton of food thats not bad for me and that stuff does taste delicious by the way. ANYWAY 

Second amazing moment today? 

I jogged for seven straight minutes STRAIGHT MINUTES ... SEVEN... 

It wasn't actually terror it was more like OH MY GOD I AM DOING IT  
3 minute mark- "SHIT LETS STOP... ok no keep going to 4" 
4 minute mark - "OK ... well no if I go one more minute I can do 5" 
5 minute mark- "Well I am not dying for breath I think I am ok to keep going" 
6 minute mark - "Yeah I can go longer lets do 10 minutes OH MY GOD" 
7 minute mark - "NOPE 10 minutes not gonna work this is good I DID THIS SHIT" 

The longest I have gone in the past is 5 minutes and now I did 7... I bet I can work up to a 10 minute jog. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT 

I went 1/2 a mile in that 7 minutes I want to be able to do a 10 minute mile in a few months GURG we shall see. 

But this is real motivation for running the Wonderland Run 5k in a few weeks 

moving on.... 

I have fallen back in love with CLOTHES

I know I posted about this before but lately I have really regained my bold and brave fashion sense.

If you follow me on facebook you saw my outfit from Sunday that I got from Gwynnie Bee

 This shirt is from IGIGI which I love but I have never purchased anything from there because its so dang expensive. Thanks Gwynnie Bee for letting me wear this on the cheap.

Tonight I am headed out in the same blue pants (size 16 btw... yeah makes me happy) with a bright turquoise shirt and BAM leopard booties.

GOAL FOR TOMORROW - don't overeat and don't over obsess just have a good day and focus on family and not food!

Monday, November 19, 2012


Well I am actually really shocked at the number of views my blog has gotten this month since I have only posted once! 

I can't believe that I have neglected my blog so bad this month. The reason is because I have also neglected my healthy lifestyle. 

I am not going to sit here and make excuses about why I suddenly stopped exercising or trying to be super healthy with my food choices but I am going to own up to my lack of drive and hopefully this week I can get back into it. 

Nobody said this was going to be easy or that I wouldn't fall down a few times along the way. 

I have definitely not changed my bad habits completely and these past 3 weeks or so I have not gained anything from my lack of effort ...other than regrets. 

I am not saying that I gained 50 pounds or even 10 but I feel like I have gained 80 and the FEELING is worse than the reality. I am starting to judge myself negatively and that's making it harder for me to want to get back in my routine. 

The main thing I have to work on: 

1. drinking alcohol. I started to drink again because I was dealing with stress and unfortunately decided I needed beer or wine to deal with that. I think my beer consumption has contributed to me feeling like I put on 80 pounds. 

2. working out. I have not worked out in about 3 weeks until today. I finally forced myself to he gym today. I kicked butt. I did this circuit - ran for 3 min. and walked for 2 min. and repeated 4 times. Then I did several leg machines and of course my abs. I already feel less fat just from that one good trip. 

3. Planning my food and making sure to get enough veggies and fruits. I really haven't done horrible with food but I do have room for improvement. 

I have to keep this in mind for the next month or so until my routine becomes habit again. Did I fall down? Yes! Am I giving up and quitting? NO! I must move forward.... 

I have a 5k coming up on Dec. 4th AH so scared I won't be running the whole time or anything I will circuit just like I do at the gym. Its a good challenge for me and good motivation for the next 2 weeks to get my butt to the gym. 

I have a second 5k in February and hopefully by then the goal is to run most of that and clock in around 10 minutes a mile which should be doable because I did 16 minutes today. I will be training for that goal in mind. 

Sunday, November 4, 2012


I have been sick a lot the past month and it has put me in a bad rut of not working out. It doesn't help that my husband and gym buddy seriously injured his back and has been off work on disability AND unable to work out as well. I was in a real groove of making sure I worked out at least 4-5 times a week. This past week I didn't go ONCE because I was sick for three straight days then my body was all sore and achey and while working out probably would have made that feeling go away and made me stretch out and feel better I decided that not working out was the right choice. 

I have this battle constantly. I have allowed myself a few food cheats once in a while but for the most part I am really good at sticking with my food goals. 

For my benefit alone I want to remind myself of those goals and how I can work harder to meet them

1. Stay away from refined sugar as much as possible (I do eat chocolate from time to time in fact as I write this I am eating a handful of M&Ms... I could make my own with cocoa powder, stevia, and coconut oil)
2. Stay away from artificial sweeteners (I use natural sweeteners at home but if I get tea or coffee out I use splenda ... I could keep my stevia drops in my purse) 
3. Drink water, coffee, or tea only (I have had family social gatherings as well as some stressed out days this past month and I have allowed myself consumption of alcohol. I think working on being smart and planning for alcohol I could do better. Telling myself I can't have it sometimes makes me want it even more. There is really no sub for alcohol so I can't just drink this not that. Make smart alcohol choices like a glass of red wine and STOP) 
4. Only eat whole grains (I am really good at this I never eat anything that isn't whole grain at home sometimes when I am out if thats not an option I will have white flour bread but I try to limit that as much as possible.) 
5. Load up on fruits and veggies ( I am good about this nothing to work on here) 

For the most part I just want to make sure that with my food I remember that I am not on a diet but I am eating for health. There are tons of healthy foods that are seriously delicious and satisfy my cravings. 
I don't want to give up on my goals and fall back into bad habits. I am very excited to see where I will be in a year and I need to set my food habits in place especially as the holidays approach! 

As far as working out I just have to get back in the habit. 

I need to be sure that I am working hard to stay fit and healthy. I am supposed to be doing this for the rest of my life and sometimes the thought of that makes me think its ok to stop for a few days and then I lose focus and fall back into the old me which never went to the gym. This is not easy. For a while I was hardcore and doing awesome and never strayed. People that don't see my struggle think "man how does she do it?" but hey I am human and its not easy and I fall down. I just have to get back up from this and keep going. 
I want to push myself to do what I know I have in me to do... I can change

Monday, October 29, 2012

Humane Choice

I decided to sleep on my thoughts and do some research for both sides so I could figure out if I am really strongly compelled to be a vegan or if I can find a way to be an ethical meat eater. 

According to the Global Animal Partnership their animals are held to a high standard to ensure proper treatment and a good life. 

I read through the treatment regulations of every animal HERE and the main promise is 

Step 1: No cages, no crowding 
Step 2: Enriched environment 
Step 3: Enhanced outdoor access Step 
4: Pasture centered
Step 5: Animal centered: Bred for outdoors 
Step 5+: Animal Centered: Entire life on same farm

I would say that I think that is at least a humane way of life for the animal. Is the animal still killed for consumption... yes. Is my problem with eating meat? I can't say that it is because I just had meat yesterday. My problem is with the sever mistreatment of an animal for its meat production. I feel like I would eat a humanely raised and killed animal. It just seems weird right... I don't agree with animal mistreatment but I do agree with it being killed???? I don't understand that idea either but its compromise for me and for the love of my meat loving husband. The main problem is that these farms held to these standards don't sell at every store. Every piece of meat sold at Whole Foods must pass through a 5 step GAP farm. Well great... the closes Whole Foods is only 4 hours away. I checked into Brookshire's Fresh but they didn't have a statement on their website that talked about animal welfare standards or anything like that other than to say it was "antibiotic and growth hormone free beef and veggie fed organic chicken" which doesn't say anything about if its humanely raised or treated.  I also found a "Certified Humane" retailer. The closest ones are of course Dallas and Houston. I am also wondering about dog food... like how is that manufactured? 

HERE is a list of where you can buy certified humane meat as well as HERE for humane choice products. 

In all this research I realized my dogs eat factory farmed mistreated animals I am sure... so I guess they have humane dog food too. 

WELL GREAT this sounds expensive but I can either refuse to eat meat or at least be informed and buy meat from farmers who do the right thing. 

Sunday, October 28, 2012


I bought this book “Skinny Bitch” and I really liked it up until the chapter “Dead rotting flesh” which basically talked about the inhumanity of eating animals. It quoted much of the book Slaughterhouse and was the most disturbing scaring thing I have read. What made it worse was I already saw this

the day before and thought “Maybe I should be vegetarian!”

This book really made me want to be totally Vegan. I don’t know if this feeling will last and it will be really difficult since my husband has no desire to be vegan. I went to the grocery store and felt guilty even looking at the meat case because all I could see were the images from this book. I don’t even want to buy or cook meat for my husband. Deciding not to eat it isn’t the only thing purchasing and cooking it is not good for me either considering the problem with it isn’t just about consumption but more about not buying into the inhumane slaughtering and use of animals. It was really disturbing to even read about dairy and egg production.  So now I am all like WELL SHIT if I have a soul I will be vegan. I have had vegan meals multiple times since going healthy but I still ate meat and dairy. I buy free-range eggs already but according to the book that statement isn’t regulated and may not be accurate plus they are still slaughtered…

My cousin called this! I was talking about meat consumption and killing things. I swore off killing things a long time ago. I don’t even kill bugs…. I make my husband do it. Now I see that this isn’t any better because the bug is still dying BUT not at my hands. Its murder for hire… that’s still wrong isn’t it hahah
This is the same with my husband hunting. I don’t mind that he hunts because I can’t change that he wants to hunt but I refuse to shoot an animal. Did I eat what he killed? Yes. I know again this is weird right but my feeling was “It is already dead it would be wrong to let the animals life be wasted by refusing to eat it if it already died for consumption anyway.”

Now I have to decide do I think that eating the meat of a wild animal that is shot and dies instantly is humane.  Do I think that there is a humane way to kill any animal? Should killing an animal for consumption ever be ok? I DON’T KNOW

Am I turning into a hippie PETA freak? OH GOD

I already check products for no animal testing which I am not 100% on… I am sure there are things I use that have in some way had animal testing associated with their production. OH GOD I am evil. I am sure a lot of people will think that my concern is ridiculous.

This may quite possibly be a fad that fades away from consciousness unless I reread that chapter everyday which I have no intention of doing OH GOD my eyes are still bleeding a little. 

I do however intend to be vegan for the next week at least and see what happens. I plan on questioning this feeling and my decision to change my ideals on meat consumption and what I find humane and acceptable. Everyone is different and has a different idea of what is and is not ok for an animal to endure but I think if everyone was honest with themselves and looked into the real horrors of meat production nobody should find that acceptable EVER.

Now here is the big problem… I like meat. I have gone a day without eating meat but not more than a day. How can I do this? I guess its like giving up anything else you have to find a swap for it and let your tastes and cravings change. I already know I love veggie burgers and vegetarian items at the store. I already swapped my milk for almond milk so that’s done. I guess I will have to test out those soy products that imitate chicken and ground beef and see what happens.

I am not saying that I am making a lifetime change to be vegan because I can’t say that with certainty I am still trying to decide how much of this is still shock talking and how much of this is unacceptable to me forever. This is something I have to search my thoughts and feelings on.  Should I do this because I feel like its wrong or should I follow the norm of society because I grew up on it and learned to disassociate with where the meat comes from and how it gets into my grocery store. 

If you have been considering a vegan diet, here are 5 reasons why this type of diet is a good idea.
1. Humane Choices
If you eat meat, dairy products or eggs, you are contributing to the often abusive conditions of farm-raised animals. Each year, thousands upon thousands of animals suffer through the torture of being used for food. By eating vegan, you can help eliminate this abuse. If you choose to become a vegan, you alone will save hundreds of animals a year from being killed in a horrible way.
2. Health
A vegan diet is a healthy diet. People who eat a vegan diet are less likely to develop things like heart disease, cancer, and diabetes because meat can contain things that are bad for a person’s health. When you decide to eat a vegan diet, your health will begin to improve immediately.
3. Save The Environment
If you truly care about helping the environment in every way possible, you must seriously consider becoming vegan. The meat industry not only contributes to pollution, but it is also a contributing factor to climate change. If you want to live an environmentally conscious life, you need to become a vegan.
4. Energy
If you are sick and tired of both looking and feeling drained of energy, you may want to consider becoming a vegan. Not only will a vegan diet give you an amazing amount of energy, but it will also help you look better. Animal products are not only draining on the inside of the body, but these products can also make you look drained on the outside. If you want to look and feel more energized, you should consider changing to a vegan diet.
5. Think About It
When you eat meat, you are also eating things like feces and other gross bodily fluids. According to studies, meat is the leading cause of food poisoning cases. When you eat meat, you are also eating nasty contaminants that can make you very sick. If you want keep nasty contaminants out of your body, try eating a vegan diet.
If you want to eat a diet that is better for both your health and the environment, you may want to consider eating a vegan diet. Not only will a vegan diet make you look and feel healthier, but this type of diet also contributes to the humane treatment of animals. If you truly care about your body and the earth, there is no better lifestyle choice than eating a vegan diet.

So....for right now no slaughterhouse is getting my money until I do further research on what I find humane and that I can ethically live with.